24 July, 2011

Personal, don't read if sensitive

I'm not much for having personal messages on this blog. I prefer just posting patterns but I need to get this off my chest.
My brother died about two months ago and he had been ill earlier this year. It was of his on making but I still hoped he would give his old life up and enjoy life but I guess he didn't have it in him. It seemed he was on the right track after the first bad incident and spending a month in intensive-care and then some months in rehab. But he turned to the dark side again only a week after release. I'm trying to see it the way that he had a good week after rehab, he spent it with his girlfriend and pets, they went to restaurants and he seemed to enjoy life. Then he went missing and turned up at the hospital and this time he didn't make it. He was 37.
He abused drugs most of his life and they destroyed his body and then he drank himself to death.

14 comments:

Alycia (thecuriouspug.com) said...

i'm sorry to hear of your loss :(

hutsefluts said...

I'm also sorry about your loss, addiction is so hard to deal with, I think sometimes it's harder for family because they see the pain but don't get to run away for it in drugs, alcohol or whatever. If I only imagine my life without my little brother I would cry. I'm sorry that it's no imagination for you.

Denise Felton said...

I'm so sorry, Sarajessica. What a tragedy for all who knew your brother. *surrounding you with loving, healing thoughts*

Denise

Anonymous said...

It doesnt matter what way they live or the way they died... it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Thinking of you and praying for you and your family to heal.

Charlie said...

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Linda said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Catherine said...

My prayers for peace and courage go to you and your family.

Desi said...

I am deeply sorry for your loss. :(
Desi

MiC said...

Sharing this wound is a start. As far as I remember there are 5 stages of grief. I sincererly hope you will soon feel well enough to remember the goods and accept the bads.

Isa B. said...

The death of a close relative is always such a tragedy... Finding words of real comfort is difficult, they can't bring back what was taken, but be assured that my thoughts are with you.

sane said...

sorry for your brother , the life is not pink for all , but i think to you.... courage kiss

hazelxstitch said...

Dear Sarajessica, I am very sorry for your sad loss, and send my prayers to you and your family at this time. We hope that these will give you strength and courage to face the days ahead. God bless you all.

Anonymous said...

I´m so sorry about your loss...

Hugs,
Laurita Hall

Uapipewife said...

I am sorry to hear this about your brother. I know now that it has been about a year now but the pain is probably still there. My 41 year old daughter is doing the same thing to herself. It actually surprises me that she has lived this long. :( I know after all this time there has not been anything anyone can do to change the situation. You, I am sure need to hear this about your brother too. I am enjoying you blog and glad your life is going great!